I will be the first to admit: I was never a really good student. Or maybe I should say I wasn’t very good at math or science. Give me a reading or writing assignment, or something to do with art and I am a happy girl. Homework….even now I put it off. So a few weeks ago my therapist gave me “homework” Now in this case, there was nothing to be graded, heck I didn’t even have to do it if I didn’t want to….this was all for my gain. So what was it? Well, she wants me to make a list. Hmmm ok, lists I am good at lists..bring it on. Oh but what is the list about? This list was to be about the man I wanted in my life….specific traits, morals, etc. This is really to have a tangible list to be able to see what I want….and hopefully what God has in store for me.
Oh the list….it is long…not because I am looking for “Mr.Perfect” I know that doesn’t exist. I am looking for the one that is right for me…not perfect. I am not perfect…I will bring with me imperfections and a few fears. The list is scary to create….what if I never meet this person? Or meet someone that even has a few of these qualities? What I need to do though is write it down, get it out on paper (or screen) and release it….let it go and know that God is in charge. This is still a hard thing to do….to let go.
So I am still working on the list….some of it is still in my head and I continue to learn those traits that I really long for. I also keep remembering a verse that I hold close to me….and amazingly enough was used at church this weekend.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give
you hope and a future.